Who is my ********?

“******** is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity , love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, and/or compatibility.”
The term is soulmate. This is the second most difficult and most incomprehensible term that I’ve ever come across. Undoubtedly, the first place goes to “girls”. Girls are the most difficult species to understand or to envisage but the easiest to get confounded.
BTW, let me clarify that the first few quoted lines are not cluttered by me but it has been taken from the Wikipedia.
Where is my soulmate?
Does she exist? I mean am I lucky enough?
How is my soulmate?
Is she beautiful err... gorgeous?
Does these questions hit your brain and hurt your heart?
You don’t need to panic you don’t have any syndrome, phobia or disease it’s just a phase of life everyone goes through when he/she fails in fourthree things.
1.Finding a girlfriend.
2.Finding a boyfriend.
3.Managing a relationship.
4.Failure in exams or in general failure in anything important...it is a fact!!!
I cannot explain the answers to the above questions nor can I describe extensively about the causes of increased level of urgency and curiosity in searching our soulmate after these three/four events that I’ve listed above but I can share some of my experiences with you.
I’m also suffering from this “soulmate search fever”.
The reasons for this in my case are failure to win a girl’s heart and bad results in exams leading to confusion about my future. Actually, this is a chain reaction. When someone is low and desperate emotionally he starts thinking about his/her soulmate and sinks in his/her thoughts and after this the chain keeps you inside and once again the time spent in imagining about your soulmate kicks you in exams or in your professional/academic life to once again fail and the reaction goes on its course.
Right from my early teenage rather childhood days, I couldn’t stop imagining about my soulmate as I’m a failure since 1988 (my year of birth).
I’m also a day-dreamer. I tend to always count the eggs of an unhatched egg forgetting the fact that the egg could be also of an impotent baby cock.
So here are my romantic thoughts about my soulmate
To my soulmate

Hi Darling
How are you? I hope you would be enjoying your days but also missing my presence in your life. I miss you too honey. I hope we meet soon. BTW, I’m getting a little bit impatient thinking about you. Wherever you are, please do not forget me as I cannot stop thinking about you. I imagine a beautiful house in a serene and beautiful place in which we enter and make it a home. We both share our work in my dreams about “you and our sweet home”. I also help you in the kitchen. That is the most romantic thing that I ever visualize. Just imagine that you are cutting onions and tears have started to roll down through your artistically beautiful cheeks. They look very sweet and pretty honey! After that I kiss your wet cheeks and that is the scene which fades my further imaginative memory about you. I hope this letter reaches you and melts your heart and we both start our life.


My failures in "soulmate search fever"
1.Love at last sight
2.My first date

PS: I've much to write about this topic.
PS: However, I spare you.
PS: I'm really confused about girls.
PS: What they want?
PS: BTW, I've started a new blog story "The 3 Nerds" start reading from here